First week...ugh

This week was HARD but it's over. I stayed in my points range and was optimistically hopeful that I would see a 3-5lb loss... not quite.

I lost .6 lbs. Not even a whole lb! I was quite discouraged but after talking (aka freaking out) to my bestie she reminded me I was on my cycle and could be retaining water weight. Makes sense so I am hopeful for a better number next week.

Hubs just got home with a bouquet for me after my morning of disappointment. What a great guy!  :) better go shower him with love.

Took a detour, and I'm back at it

Where did the summer go?  I mean I was chugging along,  working on my tan,  growing some muscles and BAM! Gallbladder craps out. Hospital for four days with pancreatitis and recovery took longer than I imagined. Sure, I've been back to the gym since but nothing consistent or routine. My motivation is deflated. My will is weak. When I have a couple minutes free, no kids, last thing I want to do is work out.

I read a quote from a friends instagram that said. "You can't out train a bad diet"
I thought..What?.....why not?! That's my dream!! (Yours too?) and I fought it hard. I thought. ..i'm gonna prove you can. I will be the first person in the history of earth to do it. Why?  Cause I focus on the wrong things to get obsessive about and I'm over dramatic. Lol.(Like you didn't already know that)

So that plan was futile. I have gym rat Nate living with me and he says .."losing weight is like 80% diet" ... that awful word.diet. yeah yeah. Well I think I'm so tired of being obese I'm doing it. Again. I joined  weight watchers again cause they had buy one get one month free. I need that accountability of weighing in and I need the celebrations when I reach milestones. So this is day 3. My weigh in day is Friday. I technically started last week but when I weighed in they said it was starting me from that official weigh in. So I'll chalk the first week up to practice. It was HARD.I feel the emotional attachments I have to food. I use it to numb or comfort or nurture myself. Isolate even. I'm walking through It and tracking everything I eat even if I take a bite. I ate funnel cake yesterday. . Yikes. I went to the Movie tonight with hubs.

Dine in eating. Usually id get the chicken fingers, fries, bbq n soda plus dessert!  That's probably my day in points. Tonight I ordered a chicken Caesar wrap with side of fruit and dressing on the side. I ate all my fruit= 0 pts!!:) and half the wrap and just the chicken out of the other half. I was stuffed! I'm proud of making healthier choices. We even passed up going for fro yo cause we were full. Who does that? 

Taking it a day a time and hope it pays off at the weigh in. I'll keep ya posted! !